THIS IS AN APOLOGY LETTER TO SOMEONE...
recently, i had been having a lot of tests and everyone is pestering me to study. i thought:its just a normal test. whats the point of studying when i know i will fail. moreover, i had never understand what on the the teacher is saying in class. until she came pestering me to study. for the two days, i really hated her as i find her so irritating, calling me day and night asking me if got study. wow!i was so pissed off with her. i got damn irritated and dont even bother to pick up her calls. until i read quite a few letters that she sent it to me. i dont know how to express myself but i really feel very touched by her letter. i felt so sorry for treating her in such a bad way. because of me, i guessed i had caused her a lot of trouble, when she already had so much stress to handle herself. despite the fact that she and i doesnt have any relationship, and yet she would fight for me all the way, i am really touched by her actions. i really dont wish to disappoint her but sometimes i really have no choice. i studied and what do i get?fail again?i am really pissed with myself sometimes. i want to pass and i must pass and i must not disappoint her.
[5:57 AM]
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Thursday, August 07, 2008
oh shit...tmr is my cello exam...i am taking my grade 5 exam tmr but i still havent memorise all my scales yet....i am like so dead...i hope the examiner will ask me those that i have already memorised...if not i will really be dead...maybe after that going to watch money not enough with my mother...maybe only...but i dont think she will go...haha...
[7:51 AM]
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